I'm reading Charles Yu's How to Live Safely in a Science Fictional Universe. I don't really need to say that I'm loving it, but I am. The language he uses to describe the science fictional science that is predominant in Universe 31 is bold and clear to me. I find myself thinking of Dr. Who and wondering if Yu is a fan. This would be because the main character(also named Charles Yu ... no relation I think) describes his condition of living inside his time machine(a box not much bigger than a telephone booth …) in a state of timelessness. He refuses to live inside his chronological time line, choosing to exist in a static space, not moving towards anything, and claiming to feel little of the impact of the past.
I am a fan of the obnoxious comment that you can time travel with nothing more than your mind, a pen, and a piece of paper. Forget the pen and paper. I spend most of my mental time in a traveling state, so I found it a bit suspicious that Charles says he spends most of his time(as a time machine technician) fixing the broken down machines of people who have gone back to the most terrible time in their life. I am baffled by this. Maybe it is because I lack a moment or a memory that I wish to change, maybe it's because I haven't felt the sting of true and deep human regret, but I would not go back. I would go forward. What could be more exciting and more terrifying than getting to see what we cannot in our short fragile lives? What could be more perfect that seeing what will become of our friends, family, state, country, world, universe? So I would choose forward, not back, not cozy static unawares. Show me what will become of us, no matter if it's good or bad.
Though of course, I need no time machine – I intend to live forever, if only to experience the rise and flow, collapse and abandon that this world will be subjected to.